Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Got An "A" in science

In the fall of 2014 I took my first science class. Never paid attention to science before.
(I hated the subject just like I hate math. So I did not pay attention). Anyway, since I am paying gut of pocket for school now I decided to focus. Plus I am just tired of being a dumbass. After I signed up for my first science class. Someone told me it would be really difficult. I already came down this path of it's too difficult. You can't do it. Except this time the person was an outside voice. Not my internal self (that's the best I can explain that, lol).

I rebuked what they said. I chose to take my science class and got my first  "A" in a class I would consider difficult. That's when I realized my problem all along was not that I was not getting the class. It was my own self doubt coupled in with some laziness.

Yeay to the world of lazy. I would spend hours watching television instead of applying myself in school. Now I am stuck in a job. If I had focused maybe I would have had the career of my dreams. Then again God works in strange ways. I can only think I am where I need to be. Though one day I want my dreams to come through.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

I sit here in front of the computer screen and I realize i haven't written anything in so long. I wonder now if i can still write. Create a movement of emotion in someone's chest. Bring the soul to joy or anger. Maybe even scare.

Let me see,

His eyes...yes I have lost some of it. I guess I am out of practice from lacking practice lol. It may take some time but i will write again. I will find the words I lost. I know so! They are someone deep inside my mind, body and spirit.

Well reader now I am off to bed. I have to get up early in the morning. I am taking a science class. I plan to expand my mind. I need to. For a period last year I felt like my brain was rotting. I could feel the neurons dying. Allowing the loss of precious connections memories and sensible thought. So I am taking challenging courses. My plan is to end with a career as a nurse practitioner.

I am excited! Enthusiastic! Elated! Now I truly am in a new frontier.

Now only am I in school. Now I have buying power because I am employed. I plan to travel a little more soon. Yeah!

My eyes are slowly closing as I write. I must leave now to go to sleep.

Good night Blog :)

I am looking for a fresh start

I haven't posted anything in a long time. I just got really busy with a lot of stuff that is going on in my life. I am back for good though now. I have a new firmness in my faith in God. And yes I finally found employment and am going back to school. YEAY!

Anyway, I have so much to share about the past year. Once I get my thoughts straight put it all out there.

:)